For those of you who were wondering where I was, I was involuntarily hospitalized again.
Now, I have a new addiction to Klonopin and Abilify, and I have a new therapist.
I am *SO MAD*. I thought I was finally free of their clutches.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
FSK Was Re-Hospitalized
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I'm very interested to read about the circumstances surrounding this latest incarceration. Please post them, if you don't mind.
I will, but I don't have the energy right now.
Aw, crap.
Listen, you have to be careful.
The difference between being free and being locked up, pumped full of drugs and watched is very subtle.
This is very, very important.
You have to act like they do, no matter what.
You have your blog where you can voice stuff they consider crazy.
You have to fight your tendency to let others know the truth.
Do not mess with people on the subway, even if they say things like 'gold is for fools'. There is nothing to be gained from trying to convert them, and will land you in the hostpital.
Do not attempt to game your enlightened understanding of people. Chances are you will slip and wind up in the hospital.
If a woman shows any discomfort talking to you, let her go. You will wind up in the hospital or in jail, regardless of your take on her body language or whatnot.
Watch your interactions!
I am speaking from experience.
Good luck
Aw, crap.
Listen, you have to be careful.
The difference between being free and being locked up, pumped full of drugs and watched is very subtle.
This is very, very important.
You have to act like they do, no matter what.
You have your blog where you can voice stuff they consider crazy.
You have to fight your tendency to let others know the truth.
Do not mess with people on the subway, even if they say things like 'gold is for fools'. There is nothing to be gained from trying to convert them, and will land you in the hostpital.
Do not attempt to game your enlightened understanding of people. Chances are you will slip and wind up in the hospital.
If a woman shows any discomfort talking to you, let her go. You will wind up in the hospital or in jail, regardless of your take on her body language or whatnot.
Watch your interactions!
I am speaking from experience.
Good luck
Benzodiazepines; I can rant about the horrors of all anti-psychotic medications, but at least they're a lot more fun compared to regular SSRI/SNRI/MAOI's. [If you have free-time, go to Blockbuster & just rent every Disney movie you find. Trust me, by the time you reach the Lion King, you'll run out of tears]
Klonopin is the same as Clonazepam, right? [I know Diazepam/Valium supposedly has the same half-life as Clonazepam]
I wouldn't complain, though, about the Abilify. My psychiatrist gives it out when you lose too much weight from the medication. It also helps with nausea & headaches. [I'm pretty sure it lessens side effects, to make the meds work better]
Hope you feel better!
Anon 6:47 is correct.
We live in a shitty world, but it's the world we have to live in right now. You can either pretend to be a part of it in public or you can be involuntarily hospitalized and pumped full of drugs.
My suggestion: get a slave job and don't worry about the parasite/productive worker interaction right now. You'll have to be a productive worker and let some parasite feed off you until you can save enough money (in gold or slave points, whatever) to break free of your folks and get your own place. When you can do that, you can start to make plans for an agorist business.
The parasite/productive worker thing won't go away in your lifetime, even if we transition to an agorist economy. Francois Tremblay had an excellent post the other day called the Obedience Circuit. The parasite/productive thing has been running in people's minds so long that it's now an automatic stimulus/response reaction. Breaking that requires time, and will probably require multiple generations of the infected aging and dying off. We can only hope, through education, that their kids will be better off at each successive generation.
You can choose to get along in this world - however faulty it is - and work to change it through agorism, or you can wind up incarcerated and permanently sedated. It's a shitty choice, but it's the only one any of us has right now. I'm of the opinion that I have nothing to gain by being locked up. Your mileage may vary.
You're mad...I'm mad. You need to take care of yourself to the point of exclusion of this blog, if necessary. The things I have learned here are invaluable. In some ways, your blog has taught me how to think. Don't let me read that you have been hospitalized again.
And do start refering to it as imprisoned, rather, because that's what it is.
And really, stop blogging anyway. Unless you are doing this for money, I doubt there is anything left to discover that hasn't already been communicated here.
I see a high quality post from you about 1/60 of the time...maybe more, but that's a conservative estimate (once every couple of months)...I still need to get back to you on another post.
Anyway, this hospitalization/living at home/still being years away/needing to write xyz/every one of those is bullshit. You need to be posting (considering that it's been YEARS) that you have achieved something in this regard. These things take time, but not this much time.
Use this to inspire you...you have a long way to go (as do the rest of us, I'm sure).
I second that anon 6:47 is very correct. There's that saying something along the lines of "you can't feed a gem to swines in the marketplace". I am from nyc as well and they're are plenty of red agents and parasites riding the train daily. Their ranks are comprised of all nationalities and demographics, rich, poor, f*cked, you name it and they're listening, listening intently to see whose stepping out of their programming (or finding sanity as I like to call it). I really hope they didn't drag you to kings county hospital again, that's an AWFUL place.
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