Mental Health Clinic Observations

I've been going to the local mental health clinic for outpatient "treatment".

Since I'm not hospitalized, my psychiatrist can't force me to take drugs. After talking with several psychiatrists, I've noticed how stupid most of them are. Most of them have no emotional empathy at all. If a patient complains "This drug has side effect X", the psychiatrist assumes that X is a symptom of the underlying mental illness, and prescribes drug Y to mask the side effect, causing even more complications. Such stupidity is only possible when the psychiatrist is totally out of touch with his patient/victim.

Even though it's obvious that my psychiatrist is retarded, I still see it for amusement, and because my parents would freak out if I refused to see the psychiatrist anymore.

I also have a therapist. Previously, I had a good therapist. She was open to the possibility that I was doing the best I could, given the circumstances, and some of the people around me were being unreasonable. However, that therapist moved on to a better job. My current therapist follows the usual "All of FSK's problems are FSK's fault!", which is useless advice. I always do the best I can. I really do believe that nearly all the people around me are completely insane. What usually happens is a small handful of abusive people manipulate others for their own benefit, and most people don't have the proper defense to deal with abusive people. I'm *VERY* good at recognizing abusive people now, which means the abusive people nearly instantly target me for elimination.

In most job interviews, at least one interviewer is the abusive personality type. This discredits the "interview by committee" approach, because the abusive person can guarantee that nobody who sees through his manipulations is ever hired. "Interview by committee" essentially means "The abusive person gets veto power over who is hired!"

It's also disappointing to notice the *HUGE* amount of children in the clinic. It seems like half the patients are parents with a doped-up child. It's very depressing to see, but there isn't anything I can do about it. The children/victims also seem much less energetic compared to "normal" children, due to the effect of the drugs.

Also, the clinic doesn't give any appointments after 6pm, which sucks for people who work. They appear to assume by default that all the patients/victims/customers are on welfare. When I get a new job (hopefully with health insurance), I'll switch to someone not affiliated with the clinic, so I can get an evening or weekend appointment.

The mental health clinic smells of death. That's hard to quantify, but it's definitely noticeable. It comes from the overall condition of the building, the attitude of the staff, and the doped-up patients/victims.

Overall, it's a depressing place to visit. I keep going because my parents would freak out if I refused to go there anymore. Further, it's an interesting educational experience, understanding your enemy. As long as I'm not involuntarily hospitalized, my psychiatrist can't force me to take drugs. I'm lucky that there never was a court order forcing me to take the harmful drugs; other people are not so lucky. For now, it's amusing to observe the lies of my psychiatrist and therapist, knowing 100% they're lies.